2004-02-17 1:09 p.m.
When you get home from a club completely wankered at 3am you should go straight to bed. I've learned that now. Under no circumstances should you decide to open up your heart to your brother concerning his bi-sexuality, and under no circumstances should you phone your boyfriend who has to be up for work at 7am and demand he goes on the internet to talk to you. Thank God he's such an amazing person and didn't shout at me when I phoned him at work to check that I actually still have a boyfriend. In fact he apologised for not being able to go on the Internet seeing as I claimed that I'd be up all night bored due to the speed I'd taken. That boy is so nice to me that it hurts.
All in all it was a pretty average night, it would have been a lot better had my supposed best friend not ditched me for some guy right at the start of the night. The only time I saw he was when the guy dissapeared for about an hour, when she made me trawl around the place looking for him. I spent most of the night sat with my friend Squirrel, and talking bollocks to random strangers.
I suppose I'd better phone Faye just to check she's still alive seeing as she went home with that guy, but I've got a feeling that if I do she's going to ask me to come and meet this other guy with her tonight. No chance, she has to be absolutely insane for inviting a guy who broke up with her to get back with his ex two days ago to stay over tonight. She's made her bed, she can lie in it.
2004-02-14 10:19 a.m.
Instead of sensibly spending our last week before the reading week break slowly weaning ourselves away from each other, Anto and I instead spent every possible minute, both waking and sleeping, together. Needless to say I think I'm in for a bit of a shock once I've actually had time to start missing him.
This time feels different to the time he went home for Christmas though. Obviously this time is only for a week, but it isn't just that. I feel a lot calmer and as if it really doesn't matter at all because we're going to have all the time in the world to spend together. I know I've never felt like this before, and I know he wouldn't be arranging his whole summer around me if he didn't love me. Oh yeah, by the way, if all goes to plan we are both going to be living and working in Cornwall at the hotel my friends Katy and Dave work at from June to September. I'd always had the idea at the back of my mind anyway, and when Anto started talking about living in youth hostels and staying with distant relatives in Manchester just so he can be near me, this seemed like a perfect solution.
Anyway, I have a shit hole of a room to pack into suitcases by dinner time. Hmmm, I wonder if I should just leave my dirty pots liying around in the kitchen in the hope that my next door neighbour will wash them over the course of next week? Some of them have muold growing on them already and it'd have to get to the point soon where she'd have to wash them. I'll call it revenge for the time she kept my wok in her room for a about a week, the bitch.
2004-02-07 11:08 a.m.
What’s the most stressful thing about University? It’s a close call, but sorting out who I’m living with next year just about beats the mountains of work I have to do (I’ve had an assignment due in every single week since I’ve been back after Christmas. Lovely.), money worries and the politics involved in living on campus. It seems that I’m the only one of my potential housemates who wants the absolute best for themselves, or at least has the bollocks to say so. Why the fuck should I live with a guy just because Faye feels sorry for him because nobody else is going to want to live with him? People have good reasons not to want to live with him, the main one being that he has been proven to be a thief. He’s also a complete utter, abusive wanker when he is drunk. I’m sorry but I refuse to live like that, and I told him so. There was a terrible atmosphere for a few days afterwards but it was well worth it because now it is absolutely, completely clear to him that there is no chance of him living with us next year.
Once that was sorted out there was the question that I feel has been hanging over me ever since Anto and I started going out. Do we live together as everyone had originally planned, or not? He seemed to think it was a great idea, but it made me feel as if we were under intense pressure to make things work, because it would be very uncomfortable and difficult otherwise. After a few arguments and a lot of tears we have decided it’d be better if we don’t. For some reason it went without saying that Anto would be the one finding other people to live with. There should be a spare room in Faye’s new boyfriend’s house next year, so that has ended up working out well.
So I’m now living with Faye and Jamie, plus Faye’s friend Rosie and lufferly computer geek Andrew. We are going looking at our first potential house tomorrow evening and I’m more excited than a very excited thing.
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